Iíve been doiní some research lately
On a subject that interests me
Iíve been checkiní out books
That are long overdue
On this subject intriguing to me
Itís the hardest homework ever assigned
An uneasy task to start
But in turning the pages of my life
I find the answers in the recesses of my researched heart
These books I donít find no library
Theyíre stacked on the shelves of my soul
Everyday is exposed a new mystery to solve
Of how Iím uniquely composed
Defining every mystery may seem like complete misery
Results from confrontation aid in reformation
Not easily accomplished, well worth it when itís done
To find that Iím not perfect, I need forgiveness from the Son
©2008 Nori & Barbie Kelley
Published by Count The Cost Publishing / BMI.
All rights reserved. Used by permission.
Hereís an oldie! This was one of the first songs that I wrote. I think it was around Ď92. I used to sing w/ my brother, Bill Beck, and we used to perform this song. We recorded it, too, but then I fell in love with the engineer, and... that recording was never released. Well, 17 years later, this song makes even MORE sense to me! As we become adults, get married, have children, we begin to have a new perspective on things. Looking back, I realize that I am a product of my childhood. Good or bad, itís who I am. Donít misunderstand me, I donít think I was THAT bad! But God has shown me HIS ways: to love, to live, to train up my kids... some things that only God can show me that need to be changed, or completely erased from my life. I am so thankful that He shows me what needs to change, and if I am willing, He changes me.
I heard someone say recently that people donít change. THANK GOD they're wrong!
Jesus looked at them and said, ďWith man this is impossible, but with God, ALL things are possible!!Ē (Matt. 19:26)
As for influences on this song, Iím thinking Anita Baker. I really got into her music in high school. As for the incredible music behind my vocals, youíll have to ask Nori about that (he says, Mark Knopfler!).